F34R was in a terrible accident.....

[podsaurus]

Glad you're doing ok. The fact that ypu recognize you say the wrong things sometimes is good.

[The Black Wolf]

I'm so happy to see you recovering well! I'll continue to pray for you.

You are so right, you don't know what you have til it's gone.

[F34R]

Update:

I'm been going through a lot of therapy with the psychologists. They have been extremely helpful for me throughout all of this. I've been in a group that is made up of others that have had brain injuries. Until recently, I was the "newest" member of this support group. It's been a great experience, at the same time being troublesome for me. I've only been past the accident for six months to this day. The closest to that in our group is two and a half years. A new member joined us this past week. He has been a cop in New York for 24 years. His accident was 12 years ago. These members in the group help out a lot. They have had a lot of the problems I've had and still have at some degree. They give suggestions and information that has helped them heal and cope with different problems that are affecting me to this day.

My most recent neuro eval... it was a LONG day to say the least. It was seven and a half hours long. It took about two weeks for the head neuro dr to gather all the data from the results, as well as all the data from the past five months (since before the last eval). When I met with him, and a few other dr's. They have basically determined that the progress has been extremely good in some areas, but there have been increased impairment in other areas. There were several variable results and they think it'll be something that can be addressed with more time with the therapy. There doesn't seem to be any further damage on my brain. The area, frontal lobe, has a mildly damaged area that will affect me to a point in crucial areas that were pertinent to my job. As far as returning to work, I'll never be able to be in that patrol car again. I'll never be in that uniform again. I'm officially retiring. All the red tape has been crossed, and just waiting for the approval from my retirement system. It is emotionally killing me to know that I'll won't be in the same capacity to help others in the ways I was able to before. I won't be able to make sure everyone is treated right. It's tearing me apart in some fashion.

I'm living, and at times, things are getting better. Some days aren't as good as others, but I'm learning to adjust and cope with it better.

I had to read the entire thread again. Some of it I can remember, and some of it I couldn't find in my head. So, I wanted to give everyone a very respectful thank you for all the support.

[Cybertox]

Good to know that things for you are getting slightly better and that the status of your brain is improving. Its a shame retiring from a job, especially when the cause was an accident like yours but i think that everything will go along alright.

[Shibby]

Look on the bright side: you'll have more time for vidya

But really, considering how rare it is for someone to love their job, I'm gutted for you.

[NYFAN75]

Sorry to hear that you are more or less being forced to retire. All of my families thought's are out to you and your family old friend..

[F34R]

Thank you guys for your support. It means a lot.

[Kuro]

My thoughts and prayers for you man!

[Vulgotha]

I'm just glad you're still with us.. I hope your road to recovery takes a serious positive turn.

[F34R]

My thoughts and prayers for you man!

Thanks.

I'm just glad you're still with us.. I hope your road to recovery takes a serious positive turn.

Thanks. It has for sure. It could have been so much worse than it is right now. Still a lot of work to do, but the positive turns have been making me drift.

[podsaurus]

I believe that even though you won't be putting on your uniform again, you can still find other ways to help people. Keep us updated and be well!

[F34R]

I believe that even though you won't be putting on your uniform again, you can still find other ways to help people. Keep us updated and be well!

Yeah, I know I'll be able to do something for someone, somewhere. I wish I were able to get to these people that call for help in emergency situations.

[F34R]

Here's a picture that they let me wife take as they were rolling me into the surgery. She begged to get this taken.. wanted one while I was still alive.

[Silver_Knight]

Here's a picture that they let me wife take as they were rolling me into the surgery. She begged to get this taken.. wanted one while I was still alive.

Wow i'm glad your alive, F34R! does looking at these bother you still?

[DINAMO788]

Hey Fear, haven't really read all this thread but its good to hear that you're making progress and staying optimistic. Good luck to ya!

[F34R]

Wow i'm glad your alive, F34R! does looking at these bother you still?

Yeah, it's heartbreaking, and tearful... I don't remember any of this, so seeing them puts a lot of things into perspective.

Hey Fear, haven't really read all this thread but its good to hear that you're making progress and staying optimistic. Good luck to ya!

Thanks Dinamo... I appreciate it.

[Fon]

Here's a picture that they let me wife take as they were rolling me into the surgery. She begged to get this taken.. wanted one while I was still alive.

Your wife went through a lot also. Reading all this and then some in the Shoutbox from you is heart breaking. I honestly don't know what to say other then continue life how you feel is right.

[F34R]

Your wife went through a lot also. Reading all this and then some in the Shoutbox from you is heart breaking. I honestly don't know what to say other then continue life how you feel is right.

Trolling here is the only way to do it!

[-Kwesnoth-]

Here's a picture that they let me wife take as they were rolling me into the surgery. She begged to get this taken.. wanted one while I was still alive.

Wow, god bless the doctors that made you better. And I like to think that prayers had a lot to do with it too.

[UberZman]

Yeah. Man, I hope that you continue to heal F34R!

[claud3]

F34R

How are you mate. Its great to read from you again. Also mate whats the status of your gaming skills, am I still better than you

[DeviousOne]

F34R its hard for me personally to see stuff like this. I'm just happy to see you doing better and being active on the forums. Like its been said before it couldve been worse and you still here for a reason.

Ill continue to pray for your improvement and for your family thru these tough times.

[F34R]

Wow, god bless the doctors that made you better. And I like to think that prayers had a lot to do with it too.

Yeah, I think God answered those prayers.

Yeah. Man, I hope that you continue to heal F34R!

Thanks UberZ...

F34R

How are you mate. Its great to read from you again. Also mate whats the status of your gaming skills, am I still better than you

I'm ok mostly. Sometimes I have some reaction time issues though.

F34R its hard for me personally to see stuff like this. I'm just happy to see you doing better and being active on the forums. Like its been said before it couldve been worse and you still here for a reason.

Ill continue to pray for your improvement and for your family thru these tough times.

Coulda been my wife posting a last time under my name...

Thanks for the support. We appreciate it from everyone, deeply. (silver, that's deeply "emotion", not what you'd like )

[claud3]

F34R...

Mate take all the time you need and you will always have are love and supports and hope you get all better and regain that special spark you have when on the forum

Good luck mate with everything and my thoughts are with you and you're family

[MoonKnyte]

Just thought i`d say, seen ya posts across many subjects on the forums, good to see you ok, you`re alive and on the road to recovery.

good luck and hope to see you posting regularly soon.